Sharks and Swans

The slower we move the faster we die. Make no mistake, moving is living. Some animals were meant to carry each other to live symbiotically over a lifetime. Star crossed lovers, monogamous swans. 

We are not swans. We are sharks. – Ryan Bingham, “Up in the Air”

At some point we all felt invincible. Whether we were the greatest superhero or could create one panacea after another or be the genius of tomorrow, childish fancy of invincibility were there. We could do something, be something. 

As we grow older, this sense of invincibility dies down for most, arguably peaked during young adulthood and then mostly degraded into hazy, vague memory when the world takes its toll with the chipping of reality. Relationships, jobs, households, security – wrapping into the practicality of life, we slowly die down into a stagnation of comfort, no longer motivated to continue the pursuit of invincibility. 

For some, that is. For the restless others, not so much. 

Restlessness rebels against this life course. It stems from the childish desire to feel invincible, to feel more than a mere mortal, to become a significant being in the finite span of life. A constant dissonance, a continuous disharmony, a ceaseless thought process – the childish restlessness that manifests into a constant movement of the mind. 

Set perceptions on limits and capabilities are rational, yes, but such ideas can be simultaneously helpful and harmful. For some, these ideas are a governing principle, a road map to their possibilities and successes in life – the elegant, beautiful swans; for others, these ideas are a suffocating assumption, a chain from pursuing beyond the practical, to go beyond what is simply tangible – the restless, moving sharks. 

To be restless is a gamble against perceived and palpable limits that ends either in success or failure, all or nothing. We like to see those lottery winners, those success stories that made it, but the cruel truth is that not everyone will make it, and in the greatest likelihood a majority of dreamers will fail for lack of resource, opportunity, support, or plain old luck. And in this world, society is unforgiving to those who fail. 

Does this mean we stop dreaming, hoping, wishing? Does this mean we must all be practical, rational, logical? 

God no. It just means we need a little bit of perspective, a little bit of growing up to do, something anew to set us into a more promising future with the same hopes intact. It means we as humans need to keep learning for our own sake in life and existence. 

Dreamers are necessary, pragmatists are essential. In order to get anything done in this world, you need a nice bit of both. A functioning human can neither be a drifting butterfly nor a cold robot – the extremities contradict what is even human. More pressingly, though, is a perspective of one’s self in the scheme of all things, that as a tiny being we are neither insignificant nor significant, unnecessary yet essential. 

Keep dreaming, stay practical. Stay restless, know limits. Be both a swan and a shark. Remain mortal and become invincible. It’s one of the hardest lessons that I’m still trying to learn in this little bubble of mine. 

Gods of Nonsense

Nonsense is genius. 

It takes gall and balls to chuck out every sense of logic and reason for the daredevil realm of illogic and insanity. Even more so it takes inane wit and ingenuity to revel in nonsense – gibberish, puns, turnarounds, the purgatory of comedy and drama. 

It’s what makes Lewis Carroll the godfather of all nonsense, the genesis of cartoons in their strictest incarnation. 

Carroll’s Alice in Wonderland seems like a mild-mannered children’s fable, a funny little tale of a girl who daydreamed and plunged into a world of gobbledygook. Poems about impossible fancies, songs bedridden with poppycock lyrics, dialogue swarming with mispronunciations and grammatical mistakes – it’s all nonsense, disjointed and positively rubbish. Yet here it is, a literary icon still today, distinguished by the very same quality most seamlessly disregard on a daily basis. 

Carroll created characters completely out of touch with our reality: without the same rules binding them, they were free to say and do what they wanted, repercussions exclusive themselves and not to us. Despite being completely unreliable, these characters – from the perpetually belated White Rabbit to the widely-grinning Cheshire Cat to a giant-headed Queen that screamed “Off with your head!” – could hit us readers with any remark as quick and stingingly possible and get away with it completely: allusions, satire, criticism, anything they wanted to say they said it, unafraid of offense or shock. They are legendary icons of nonsense, uttering the harshest comment to the lightest parody and still emerge unchanged, unscratched, untouched. 

It’s this untouchable trait that the truest of cartoons share, and the genius of this quality is their birthright into a God-like realm of any shenanigan they so chose to perform. 

Disney created lovable heroes, Warner Bros created screwball rascals. Bugs Bunny outsmarted every bullying antagonist, Daffy Duck haplessly tried to be serious, Wil E. Coyote devised contraptions after another to catch Road Runner, Porky Pig incessantly stuttered introductions – they said and did everything and anything otherwise impossible or unheard of. From breaking the fourth wall to dropping impossibly large anvils out of the sky, their wit, parody and commentary of pop culture and current events were stingingly honest. Even if the messages are now propaganda and/or racist by current standards, at the time they were relevant and reflective of the American public. But unlike politicians or public figures, they were completely unaccountable by virtue of their cartoon nature. 

Cartoons occupy a completely independent dimension, one that regards the presence of deus ex machina and red herrings and two ton mallets appearing from someone’s back as wholly and completely normal, that instantly changes scenes and mood at the whim of the animator, and most importantly has characters that are self-aware of their watching audience. Like the Muses of Greek Mythology, cartoons could dispel commentary at their own will and still remain detached from the ramifications of the humanly world. At their greatest metamorphosis, cartoons are Gods that take pleasure in jestering and commenting on our human dimension. 

Though funny in its own respect, “Family Guy” (premiering 1999) frequently indulges in the lowest denominator of humor instead of rebelling forward with a constant influx of musical/Broadway musical numbers and other high culture references it is also known for. 

Most recent animations no longer strive for this God quality of classic cartoons; they instead either opt for cheap laughs, distillations of life into moronic slapstick without substance or pursue stylization without forming (nonetheless understanding) an appreciation for the necessity of moving, intelligent narratives. Given how the American animation industry has restructured over decades, this is unsurprising: as studios cut back on animation costs, writers, animators and directors left for higher quality projects, and through a cascade of declining productions subsequent cartoons increasingly lacked the genius of their predecessors, forcibly dumb-downed by executives who failed to see value in the immaculate brilliance of tricksters and buffoons. Coupled with the continued formulae of Disney features, public perception of cartoons and animation dwindled into mere shrug-off to children as a buffer from “more adult” narratives. The God quality of cartoons soon retreated into its own reigning realm, now a hidden gem from the public that once flocked to its feet. 

Eddie and Roger Rabbit from “Who Framed Roger Rabbit?”

Few modern incarnations have reached scale of classic cartoons, and their ingenuity is highly commendable and celebratory. From the 1988 film “Who Framed Roger Rabbit” to the 1993-1998 series “Animaniacs,” these and likewise productions did nothing to tame themselves: they were slapstick, satirical and sharp, taking cues from their legendary forerunners; they did nothing to be loved and adored and were thus lovable and adorable in themselves. Unfortunately, these creations are underrated due to current bulk of American sentiment, that “cartoons and animation are a silly genre for kids." 

Yakko, Wakko and Dot with their favorite friend, Steven Spielberg. 

Animation and cartooning are not the same, and they most certainly are not genres. Both are mediums, and though similar are very much different by nature and by what they are able to accomplish – the former wanting to be delightfully endearing and the latter simply not caring. And most importantly, they have never been exclusive to children; it is only with current attitude that studios gear and shear and trim their animated productions into moronic, mass-consumerist products. Other countries like France, Britain, Canada and Japan understand this subtle difference very well, which is reflective in their animated/cartooned productions like Sylvain Chomet’s "The Triplets of Bellevile” (France) and Isao Takahata’s “Grave of the Fireflies” (Japan). 

2008 Pixar Short “Presto” by Doug Sweetland. 

In America, this distinction has been lost over generations of changing viewers, and its something that desperately needs to be clarified should American animators alike wish to push forth the two mediums back into the conscious, thoughtful public mindset. My greatest hope currently lies in the likes of Andrew Stanton (“Finding Nemo” and “Wall•E”), Henry Selick (“The Nightmare Before Christmas” and “Coraline”), Brad Bird (“The Iron Giant” and “The Incredibles”), Craig McCracken (“Powerpuff Girls” and “Foster’s Home for Imaginary Friends”), Genndy Tartakovsky (“Dexter’s Laboratory” and “Samurai Jack”), and a few others who likewise maintain faith in the intelligence of children and adults alike, that animation has an artistic potential live-action will never accomplish. 

Now all we need is another daredevil animator to create a God of a cartoon. 

Words

They are symbols, derived from centuries of communication and exchange between us humans. They established languages, culture, sociality, meaning. They arrange into different variations with varying consequences. 

Words. 

As I write this, much has been revealed. Each selection, each diction, each syntax I so chose to present – it speaks millions as to who I am. Words are my art, my weapon, my heart, my manipulation. I am sharing a piece of myself to you, the reader. 

Stop crying, please. 

PLEASE stop crying. 

These are the same exact words, slightly out of order, emphasis tweaked, message and emotion completely different. One displays sympathy, the other vents impatience, frustration, anger. 

When I’m told to simply shut up and listen, to get back on track after abrupt interruptions, to stop repeating myself, to just talk and not think about my words like an essay – anger builds up inside me. It’s insulting, hurtful, suppressive, oppressive: why must I simply accept? Why am I being inhibited from thoughtful discussion? Why can’t I continue on about something I care about? Most importantly, why am I being shuffled back into submission? The implications: you are insignificant, you are stupid, you are annoying, you are irrelevant, you are impractical, you are unnecessary, you are a rebel without a cause.

But here’s the thing:  

Words are my freedom. 

I’m a idealist, a pragmatist, a romantic, a technic. 

Ideas are fluctuating, dynamic, pulsating, alive. Repetition is invariable: there are some who think of the world as a math equation, that you live, forgive and forget, that everything fits neatly into a box like an Aristotelian play – tidy, easy to tuck away, simple and clean. 

Ideas do not die. They morph, change, surge and bebop into repetition and revision – over and over and over again. Charlie “Bird” Parker, John Coltrane, McCoy Tyner, Steve Davis, Elvin Jones – they all repeated, they all revised, they all performed and expressed things that had been established before. They are masters of musical pulsations. 

Ideas do not die. They are simply repeated and revised, each time with a similar yet very different implication, weight, significance, emphasis, effect. Ideas flood my mind, and I use them to make and break the rules of establishment, tradition, normality of mental stagnation. 

So what if I don’t understand Maxwell’s equations? So what if I don’t remember dates in Russian history? My thoughts aren’t any less than that – it means there’s more to learn, that I’m more than willing to listen to what others have to say. There’s no need to scoff at my shortcomings, my inabilities, my repetition: we’re all human, and though we might hate it we all conglomerate together into the same large community, a society in which everything counts. Logic, emotion, philosophy, building, enterprising, socializing, materialism, immaterialism – we all must deal with these aspects regardless. 

I am not an engineer. I am not a historian. I am not a biologist. I am not a lawyer. 

I am me. And I am articulate. 

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